Feelings that never got Suppressed!!!

  Things were so overwhelming for me that my heart is now going to come out ... hoofff... This was the phase, which still has its flashes after 5 yrs.  Have no control over it... WISH I COULD HAVE. This thing has marked my heart so deep that still after 5 yrs, I'm not able to suppress it. This thing is now flooding over me and I can't take it anymore...JUST UNBEARABLE ... So here I'm going to flood out my all compressed feelings to you all.

     So here everything started, In class 9th, I took admission to Delhi Public School, Varanasi. Usually, I saw people having lots of friends to which them they are really connected. Like any other person, I wanted the same but never happened before class 9 and I also stop trying because I started to think there is nothing like things called best friend, bestie, love; it is all just in people's minds.  I started to think, people give the name of best friend to people with whom they spent a lot of time. Just for the sake or to show the world they are so-called best friends or best buddies, there is nothing like any best friend thing. Similarly, this has gone with my love side too. I used to think love, crush is just a phase, which people forget after some time. It is just a nuisance teenage drama. But... things come out to be the complete opposite of my thought... I was wrong...LIFE IS COMPLICATED...